another rant before the big P

Despite the frustration and hardship that I had endure while I was there, I couldn't deny that I miss my time in Otepoti, Aotearoa. I miss walking to class during the cold winter months, when I could literally feel the chill crept into my bones. I almost thought that I was frozen once due to the temperature hitting negative degree celsius. I miss how much I anticipated the rays during autumn afternoons, when I would flaunt my uneven toned legs in shorts and jandals. Strangely enough, I even miss my sleepless night in my little bedroom when I had to work on assignments that due the next day. In short, I miss my student life there.  

In three days I'll be entering a new phase in my life - being on practicum. It'll be quite different this time. For the first time I would be entrusted to handle a class, teach the pupils for about 3 months, and yes, I would be assessed on how well I'm being a teacher. Everything that I've learned for the last 5 years would come into practice, a real hands-on experience. I don't know how I would cope, I reckon I would break down on the first day itself should my associate teacher ask me to go into the classroom. I really wish that I wouldn't smile much, or being over friendly toward the pupils. I have to establish the sense of authority first. But I have no clue if I'll do a good job. I tend to fidget a lot and smile excessively when I'm nervous because I thought it would mask my anxiety well. But no, I could actually risk myself getting bullied by the pupils!

Yes, I'm worried about my practicum. How I wish that I'm just in my second year, being the girl who has just arrived in Otepoti. 

Wish me luck.

-Miss B-

I have rainbows in my heart. :P

Well, my mister asked me if he resembles a bear, and I told him he does. Like panda.

He didn't like it.

Panda is cute, and cuteness tarnishes his manliness, he said.
Haha, so you better stick being a Polar Bear, I said.
Does polar bear frighten people? He asked me back. I nodded. He grinned. Well, Polar Bear is not too bad.


Silly questions, but they brightened my day. And hopefully Polar Bear wouldn't complain about my blog being too depressing anymore after this. I have rainbows in my heart, I can colour your life with lots of hues!

Practicum will start soon. I'm nervous, but I'm looking forward to it! Wish me luck, folks! Hopefully, there'll be more happy post from me, telling how wonderful my practicum is *cross fingers*

-Miss B-

Hello again :)

Hello, I'm not a stranger. I own this blog, just in case if you've forgotten me. I know, it's been a long hiatus. Been busy with assignments, exam, and holiday. A lot of things happened as well. If I were to write every detail, I don't think the whole page is enough for me to scribble them all.

Let start again.

Hello. Thanks for visiting. Deliberately or by accident, the same greetings you'll receive. I bet my lone reader has long forgotten this site, as well. He's been busy. And I don't expect him waiting for a new entry from me every second. Well, hello to him as well. And I wish he's having wonderful time at home.

I met him yesterday, before I headed to the airport for a new semester at college. We'd had breakfast together, and it was good to see his smiling face and listen to his chatter while we were finishing our portion of the best noodle in town. But he turned murky towards the end. And I could tell he was trying to act manly, denying the urge to go in tears while I bid him goodbye afterward. Fare thee well, beloved. I'll see you in person in few months. Surely, I'll see him everyday during our Skype session. But the feeling is different. He's not there for me to pinch. And I can only see his chubby cheek on the screen.

It's a new semester and the last one for my degree final year. I can't afford to be melancholic the whole time. Gotta be strong, B! Wave aside your homesickness!

Till later, be good :)

-Miss B-