R.A.N.T (again???)

Helllllooooo!!! I know, I've been chipsmore again... "Now you see me, now you don't!" Last month was crazy. My parents complaint on my rarity of calling home, and so did Polar Bear! I tried my best to make time for everyone, but I hardly had time even for myself. My 24 hours were spent on campus programme, and I was compelled to join! Not to mention the meet-up with everyone before I left the city.. But that was last month. Now I'm back to my beloved hometown. It was definitely good to be back. But at the same time, I miss my coursemates. We've been together for 5++ years and the thoughts of not seeing each other everyday kinda saddening.
Thank you for the memories, friends. And thank you for growing up with me. I've definitely learned a lot from all of you...
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It's time to move on. Let's talk about something jovial. There'll be a wedding in the family this coming Saturday! Nope, not mine (you can breathe out now :-P), it's my aunt's! I'm so excited for her. She told me wedding is such a big thing to handle, and I could really sense her bridzilla syndrome! But I think she handle it well, plus she has the entire family beside her. My parents have been busy to help with the canopy, invitation, etc.. And she also has me who's been excited for her!! eeeeekkkkk!! XD
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Ookkkaaayyy, it's time to calm down. Excuse the frantic way of writing, the spelling error (if any), I'm blogging from my android! It's my first time doing this (so ancient, eh?), and I think it's a good attempt to stay connected so I won't leave this page unattended for a long period again..

I think that's all so far. Till later!!

-MissB- (grrr, somebody please tell me how to italic-ize the fonts!)

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I wanted you so much. and still I do till this very moment. Four years of struggle didn't suffice. Maybe my effort wasn't good enough to make me worthy for you. I'm shattered, utterly broken. A little bit more. You were so closed, yet too far. And yet.

I hope there's still hope for me.

Right now, I need time to heal. To rejuvenate. Recuperate. This wound is unbearable. But no, I won't give up. I would pursue you till you're mine.

But I would also learn to be contented with whatever I am now. It was a good game and I enjoyed the race. I would definitely come back to the field again. I would run again, chasing after you.. and breathe in the air of victory. I would.

God grant me the serenity 

to accept the things I cannot change; 

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time; 

Enjoying one moment at a time; 

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; 

Taking, as He did, this sinful world

as it is, not as I would have it; 

Trusting that He will make all things right

if I surrender to His Will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life 

and supremely happy with Him

Forever in the next.

Amen.

-- Reinhold Niebuhr