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I have a little secret. Yes, I won't disclose it to anyone but you, my dear loyal reader!

I've had a good cook since few days ago. And this cook makes a real good food. Everyday he feeds me without fail. :) :) :)

But today, he'll leave. And it'll be two months before he can cook for me again :( Oh, how I wish I have a good cook for good, for everyday!

My handsome cook waiting for food!

Farewell, cook! You've fed me well :) Skype you soon!

-Cook's subscriber-

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I'm so tired of learning English.

I'm so so so tired.

I hate how words often fail me.

I hate presenting in front, speaking to a bunch of people who don't even care to bother just because they couldn't understand me.

And they never know I spent one whole week to prepare for the speech. They never know I stayed up the whole night before just to come up with the stupid powerpoint. They never know I practiced my speech at 3 o clock in the morning and continued till the first light of dawn. They never know it took me hours till I was satisfied to print out my notes.

I'm so hating myself. (I know it sounds awkward. we don't say that in English. Heck, who cares? Will you speak my native language better if you have to suddenly learn it?)

I'm so so tired.

I'm so so so tired.

-Miss me not-

Being reflective

I have a research proposal that due tomorrow and I haven't started writing anything yet. Let alone the readings. Gosh, I'm too listless! I slept at 4 this morning, been up working on previous assignment that due at midday. Then woke up again at 8am. Keep going B, I have to tell myself over and over.

And now, instead of working on my proposal, I'm procrastinating again. My back aches. I tried to read the journal for my research but I couldn't really make sense of it.

Bet I would be busy from now on. Juggling between studying, reading, class, practicum, part time job, bible study, socializing, family, besties, and Polar Bear. Plus, I have to enjoy this country as much as I could. The time is running out before the term ends. I'll be heading home at the end of this year, and then saying farewell to this beautiful country. Surely, I'll miss it for I've grown more mature in these last two years... Being away

from family, and learning how to be an adult.

I think I'm more confident now as compared to two years ago... I hope I'll grow up and learn some more.

-Miss B-

Yup, another assignment!

I closed my eyes imagining Polar Bear and I dancing to this song

I love the lyric, the voice, and the music to bits. Adele is brilliant! I'm a huge fan.

Oh, you are probably wondering why I'm still up at 3 am in the morning. Well, I have to finish my assignment which is due later at noon. :S

Other reason is I'm waiting for the moment of my tummy's 'biochemical disturbance' because I, by mistake, swallowed 3 rotten scones. By all account, it was stale because it smelled 'something stale', but I didn't get to smell it! It tasted + smelled fine to me, but I could have been deceived by my rumbling tummy! Assignments often make me hungry. And I thought scone would 'quench' it. Big mistake. :S :S

I have another assignment to work on. How I wish I were a wizard, wave my wand and 'finishio', there goes my assignment -- done on its own.

Polar Bear and I - excited for swing!

-Miss B-

The impromptu prompt

Suddenly this verse keeps on playing in my head...

"Your will above else, my purpose remains"

Lord, I thank you for the profound feeling that I experience this morning...

Your love is so deep, I want to kneel and praise You for you're so high and so mighty...

And I yearn to worship You with every breath that I have and my soul won't cease glorifying You...

I am worthy because of Jesus' blood. I am drawn into this relationship because of the perfect sacrifice...

Draw me more to you dear Lord... For I'm a humble servant, meek and weak...

I need Your hand to hold my hand...

Consume me from inside out...

Embrace me with Holy Spirit...

Let me feel Your everlasting Love...

I want to praise You!

and I WORSHIP you...

-Little E-