I think I'm not happy
I don't know how to
I want to be happy
Please tell me how to
What does it mean by being happy?
If smile is the gauge
Then everyone has no idea how wrong they have been
Because smile is the best defense
To hide the tears at heart
How beautiful a smile would be
How deceiving it could be
One could never tell, the person who smiles the sweetest suffers the most
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Now she knows..
Aloofness that she has always yearned for kills...
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~Miss-me-not~
Now is no longer considered as new year. In few weeks we'll step into the 7th month of the year.
At the beginning of this year, I knew little of what 2013 would be like. I was super excited because I would be finally graduating and taste the food that would be bought with my salary. I thought that starting this year I would have control over my own life. But this ideal picture that I had in mine was just a dream. In fact, if I could describe 2013 in an adjective it would be "helpless". A lot of things happened against my will and I couldn't do anything but to endure and try to survive.
But one thing I did realize when I reflected about these series of unfortunate events was my lack of faith. I was too arrogant and thought that I could carry my burden with my own strength. I forgot about the Big Guy Up There. He is probably watching me now, shaking His head and saying "You should have relied on Me".
To have more faith I should. To trust that every difficulty/helplessness that I'm facing now would lead to a better me, a better future. Therefore, never cease believing in Him.
~Miss_B~
