The tale of four walls.

Is it wrong to expect everyone to like me? I think I try so hard. Since my younger years, I've been always self-conscious. I found it difficult to fit in everywhere. I thought if I go to a new place, far from my hometown, I would be accepted.. that people would want me to be their friends. Don't get me wrong, I did meet some awesome friends and we got very close despite the fights and disagreement. They shaped me to be who I am now and I should thank them for it. Now, I'm on a new chapter where those friends who I've come to count on during rough times went to different paths. I don't get to see or contact them much. So when times like this come, where I yearn so much for a conversation, I found myself clueless. Facing the walls alone, even singing at the top of my lung wouldn't make me feel any better. I suddenly feel alone. Dumb, wordless, even 'lonely' seems too simplistic to describe the feeling.

When I was a teenager, I wanted to have a boyfriend because I though by having one I wouldn't be the odd one out... or even if I were to be one, it would be much bearable because I have a boyfriend to back me.

Maybe it would be better if I have an imaginary friend since the beginning. People would label me loony, but I wouldn't mind at all because I have someone to talk to...

-Miss_B-

Hey Hey!

Like usual, I only blog when I have workload waiting for me on my desk. There are tons of them.
Hey everyone, how long have I gone missing this time? I hope you're well.

I thought I've posted something recently. Yeah, on this page. But now when my mind was suddenly reminded of this page, I found out that my last entry was posted a couple of months ago. Oh well, I guess I blogged in my dream then.

How's life? Mine I think is okay. Im busy being a teacher, a daughter, a friend, a fiancee (yup, I'm one now, more on this later *wink*), and a human being. I still could't believe it that now I'm making my own money (though still struggling, thus sometimes resulting in my folks hand out few bucks to me). There are lots of things that I definitely need to learn, especially on financial management.

Is this length of scribbles enough for this entry? Well I hope I'll be more motivated to put up something  so this page won't be too dull.

I love you.

-Miss B-