Is it wrong to expect everyone to like me? I think I try so hard. Since my younger years, I've been always self-conscious. I found it difficult to fit in everywhere. I thought if I go to a new place, far from my hometown, I would be accepted.. that people would want me to be their friends. Don't get me wrong, I did meet some awesome friends and we got very close despite the fights and disagreement. They shaped me to be who I am now and I should thank them for it. Now, I'm on a new chapter where those friends who I've come to count on during rough times went to different paths. I don't get to see or contact them much. So when times like this come, where I yearn so much for a conversation, I found myself clueless. Facing the walls alone, even singing at the top of my lung wouldn't make me feel any better. I suddenly feel alone. Dumb, wordless, even 'lonely' seems too simplistic to describe the feeling.
When I was a teenager, I wanted to have a boyfriend because I though by having one I wouldn't be the odd one out... or even if I were to be one, it would be much bearable because I have a boyfriend to back me.
Maybe it would be better if I have an imaginary friend since the beginning. People would label me loony, but I wouldn't mind at all because I have someone to talk to...
-Miss_B-
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