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I wanted you so much. and still I do till this very moment. Four years of struggle didn't suffice. Maybe my effort wasn't good enough to make me worthy for you. I'm shattered, utterly broken. A little bit more. You were so closed, yet too far. And yet.

I hope there's still hope for me.

Right now, I need time to heal. To rejuvenate. Recuperate. This wound is unbearable. But no, I won't give up. I would pursue you till you're mine.

But I would also learn to be contented with whatever I am now. It was a good game and I enjoyed the race. I would definitely come back to the field again. I would run again, chasing after you.. and breathe in the air of victory. I would.

God grant me the serenity 

to accept the things I cannot change; 

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time; 

Enjoying one moment at a time; 

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; 

Taking, as He did, this sinful world

as it is, not as I would have it; 

Trusting that He will make all things right

if I surrender to His Will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life 

and supremely happy with Him

Forever in the next.

Amen.

-- Reinhold Niebuhr