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For the first time, I feel so nervous tackling my assignment: an essay on gender issues in education. There's a lot of things going on in my mind, such as how I'm going to understand the articles, how I'm going to start my essay, and of course what my lecturer's response would be. She's presented her research on gender issues in many conferences. I'm sure that this is her thing. Thus, that fact makes me nervous. I'm afraid that she'll find my arguments childish and immature.

In fact, I rarely have a clue on what's going on in lectures. I gape at the sound of bombastic terms that my lecturer seems to attach to. I find it hardly to blink the moment I see alien lexicon on the slides shown. I keep on asking, how am I going to survive???

I really struggle a lot. I felt I've made a lot of efforts but to little avail. I'm so pessimistic lately when it comes to this paper. Undeniably, it's an interesting subject, an eye-opener to a newbie like me... For I'm quite oblivious of the current gender issues in education. In fact, the issues raised were not merely about sexuality or the oppression of women. It takes deeper concerns. Sometimes it happens the other way round. Men are at stake as well in term of opportunity. But of course, there is a lot of debates going on from both perspective of feminism and anti-feminism.

I haven't started typing yet. I have less than 48 hours to complete it all and there're heaps of pages to go (I've re-read them for like hundreds times!)

Wish me luck,

-Miss B-