"Red Flag" Days

I was (am? lol...) a sulky person. Unpredictable, and quite ill-tempered. Reminiscing the past, I saw myself on the phone with my teenage sweetheart, weeping and expressing how sorry I was for starting our argument. Usually this clause would be overheard, "...because I was having my PMS..."

People say, it's easy to put the blame on someone/something. It can protect our innocence, so it won't be too obvious that we are actually on the wrong side. Of course, because most of the time, no one wants to be convicted...

Back to PMS, I'm not really sure if there is any scientific evidence proving that women would experience characteristic-transition during the period (I'll try to do my reading on this later, :P)

Question to ponder: Does it mean that women have to hurt their loved-ones just because they are on 'prior-red-flag days'?

As a young woman, I've experienced all this. I let this idea of "I'm not emotionally stable because of PMS" enrolled my logic and at the end of the day, I became SOMEONE ELSE, hurting those who were so dear to my heart. I couldn't tell how remorseful I was and wishing so bad to be able to turn back the time... to undo all the mess and destruction that I'd done.

I know that I have problem. And even if this is out of my control, those people around me do not deserve the pain...

Don't be deceived by the lie of PMS

or anything that can turn you to be someone new who is NOT you.

You know yourself better than anyone else.

and I'm learning this too, with you...