No, I'm not so into drinking and hardcore partying. But the idea of having a social life like a teenager who's just been away from home really tempts me. I wanna be silly. I wanna have life. And for once, I just wanna be irresponsible without bothering of what people might think about me. Polar Bear said I'm in mid-20's crisis. I live in denial and try to revive my teenage life by doing things that I had never done when I was one. Pathetic eh?
But one thing for sure, I never regret my adolescence years even if I spent most of the time being an obedient daughter. I lived my life to a standard my parents expected me to. I didn't go party, neither the chance of going to a prom. I came home before my curfew(which normally at 6pm). Surprisingly, I didn't break the rules even when I first stayed away from home at the age of 18. I was too scared to fall from grace, and to disappoint my family was the last thing on my mind.
I told myself that it's okay to be sensible, to be prudent. I don't need to go against the current and do things that aren't me (as most my friends that time were "having the time of their lives" by partying, traveling, etc) I remember being labelled as the nerdy (or should I say the loser?) in my school and thus was well qualified to be a social outcast. It was a painful memory. But I survived. And that what makes me proud until now. To survive and to move on.
Growing up is a big thing. It's not easy and you'll be tempted along the way. But you've got to know your stance and your strength.
Learn to be wise.
-Miss B-
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