Another rant.

Hello it's been so long since I last wrote something up here. How are you? I hope life's been treating you well. Sorry for the long hiatus. I've been busy lately and my life's gone up and down. So many times I tried to scribble something but words often failed me. I couldn't express myself well so I kept everything to myself.

I've learned quite a lot from my practicum phase. I love my children, but at the same time I'm afraid I teach them the wrong things. One student came to me the other day and asked me the meaning of 'logging'. I mistook the word for being similar to clogging (I think) and thus told the poor fellow that logging is some kind of blocking. Screw me, I felt really bad about it! This experience really taught me to check every material that I'm giving to my students beforehand. Make sure you know your things!

I'm pessimist (as usual). I have no confidence in myself that I would ever get good comments from my supervisor. I don't think she would ever like the way I handle things in class. I'm super weak and I feel so helpless about it. Thinking about how weak I am makes me restless. I feel like running and shouting and wailing like a mad woman. Ok, enough about self-deprecating story. I know I've insulted myself to the max. Let's talk something that would calm me down, and actually restore my vibe.

No matter what happen after this, I'll strive to do the best for my children regardless the thoughts that I would make my supervisor scream at me. I will do things that my children would enjoy and learn something. Anything for my children. Hopefully in the end, my supervisor will be able to see my sincerity and grand me a 'pass'. Yes, I just need to pass this practicum.

-Miss B-