Ouch, my tongue hurt!

I was born in a family who taught me to be a bilingual person.

I could speak my mother tongue fluently, and also the national language.

However, ever since I learned English, my "ability" to speak both former languages that I was always proud to say that I could speak them fluently kinda "backed away".

Ironically, my fluency in English is not considered to be good either.

Now I feel like I don't belong to any of the language...

How I wish I could speak English fluently, and at the same time retain my ability in speaking other language that I used to be good at...

-Miss B-