random thought

Weirdly enough, I tend to feel down whenever my birthday is coming. No, not because I am afraid of not getting any wish or present, or scared of getting old. It's simply because: yo, I'm getting older but I am not as accomplished as others.

The feeling sucks. I feel like I am a waaaaayyy behind others. Most people of my age have already reached a level of life where they are on control of it, being adult.

May be I envy them.

I have no idea.

and that makes me even scared of my future.

I feel like a loser. I feel like I would never grow up.

That I would be stuck in my uneventful life forever.

But, no one could tell what the future holds.

I'm about to discover it myself.

I'm now learning to have faith. and to plan.

I need to be practical.

I have a lot of pending dreams.

I wish soon, my star will shine brightly.

-Miss B-