I finished writing my report yesterday, and now I'm working on the last assignment for this semester - another 2000 words reflection! Sigh, I can't wait for Monday, when I would submit everything and declare myself free - well, at least for about two weeks before I sit for the only exam for this year.
Next semester I'll be going for practicum and I'm already nervous whenever I'm thinking about it. I try my best to build up my confidence, and prepare myself mentally by reading books about English teaching and learning (for those who don't know yet - yes, I'm that nerd). I try my best to link any classroom practice to what I've read. And yes, I've scrutinized the curriculum documents as well. It's important for me to know what type of product the country wants me to produce. So yeah, I've started to embrace the fact that I'm to be a teacher!
Seeing my friends graduate made me envious. I want my degree certificate so bad. I know that most people told me that working phase is not all pretty story - with paper works to write and more responsibilities on shoulder, but I'm just indifferent to it. I just can't wait to graduate and start a new life. Maybe I long for a sense of accomplishment - and that degree certificate is the only thing that would quench my thirst. I want to get a job and buy a washing machine (lame, I know). I want to work, buy a car, rent a house, and do things that I would never be able to do before due to financial constraint. And eventually, when I've saved up some money (God willing) I'll think about settling down with Polar Bear. You see, I have everything planned already. But first, I need to face my demon - insecurity and lack of confidence. I'm constantly trying to boost up my confidence and learn things that I believe would help me with it.
Apparently reading "Letter to Sam" by Daniel Gottlieb has urged me to think more about life. Now I really need to get back to my work.
Till then, be good everyone! Ciao!
-Miss B-
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