Let out everything

I want to write again. I'm overwhelmed with anger. I hate myself for being so timid, and that people could talk to me condescendingly. I let them, and I let myself get hurt. I may have already forgiven them, but it's so difficult to forget everything that they've done to me. I pray that I will never do others the way they had to me.

I'm always ridiculed in my life. Even the way I talk, what I talk, and whom I talk to. Why? What have I done against them? I can't breathe, it pushes me so hard I could never be tranquil but to avenge. But that would be the last thing I want to do.

Calm down, dear heart... Calm down...

Dear mind, you have better thought to think of other than that...

I need to forgive...

To forgive and to completely forget.

-Miss B-